13 Days Down.. 94 More To Go.

                                                                   13 days down.. 94 more to go..

Another day is down and I have 94 more to go until I can finally see my boyfriend again!! I didn't get to talk to him this weekend... Which makes me really upset to be honest. Some guys ruined things for the other ones that didn't do anything. Why would you steal your phone back from your commander? That's just crazy. I miss hearing his voice and seeing him everyday. I'm really hoping that I will get a letter or two in the mail today. That is the only thing that I look forward to every single day. I wake up in the morning and pray that he stays safe and then all day I wonder wonder wonder if I will get a letter in the mail when I get home that evening from school. I wish we would hurry up and get a return address so that I could write him back. It's reall hard being in an army relationship. You don't get to see your loved one for months at a time... That really sucks. Most girls take advantage of their boyfriends.. Well the girls that get to see them everyday. I will honestly be more appreciative of my boyfriend when he returns home. Being without him for this long is killing me and most people would say "aw, it's not hurting you that badly." They obviously have never had anything that has meant the world to them leave them just all of a sudden, it feels like your world has been turned upside down in a matter of seconds. You go from talking to him everyday, seeing him everyday, and calling him whenever you wanted to.. to not getting to talk to him for days.. maybe weeks at a time. The only thing that is getting me by are my friends, family, and the letters that I recieve from him about 3 times a week. Every night I sleep in his clothes and cuddle with the bear that he got for me because right now that is the only thing that I have to remind me of him... other than our memories and I think of them daily. Everytime I think of one it's just like reliving them over again. I also have the puppy that we got together before he left, she sleeps with me at night time as well. I can't wait for him to come home I will attack him with kisses and hug him until he makes me let go. Just thinking of it gets me all excited.. 94 more days?.. Can I do it? I think I can, I just have to be strong for my boyfriend and for me as well. I know that time will go by fast if I keep myself busy and do things with my friends to get my mind off of it. I really never stop thinking about him or the fact that he is gone, but I always think about the way things will be when he gets back. Things will be so perfect and amazing, our relationship will be stronger than ever. I never ever thought that I would be in an army relationship, but I honestly love it. You learn to appreciate things a whole lot more than you did before. You learn to be patients and wait for what you love to come back to you. I'm counting down the days. It gets easier every single day, but it's still hard at times. He is home to me and I am so homesick right now. I have to be strong for him though and that's what I'm going to be. I love my soldier.