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I love this Article Of The Week because he is asking tons of questions that are questions anybody would love to know, but don't ask. No-one ever thinks to ask these questoins when really people would love to know the answers to them! I always think about things like this, I ask myself questions all of the time that I won't know the answer to until later on in life. Only time could answer the things I ask myself because I often think about my future and what it will be like. Will I still be with Forrest? What am I going to get a job doing? Is my life going to end up good or bad? Who will I marry? How many kids will I have? Will I even havev any? These questions will only be answered by time. I can shoot for all of these goals that I have, but God will give me what he wants me to have and I really hope that it's a good gift, which everything from God is so good. I just want my life long goals to come true & I want all of my questions to be answered.

Vacation

I am so ready to get out of Lincoln County for a couple of days. I get tired of being in the same old place every single day. I feel so sorry for the people that never get to go anywhere besides staying in North Carolina. I love seeing different things and going shopping in different places, learning new things about other states, and seeing the beauty of other places as well. I love North Carolina.. don't get me wrong, but being in the same state all of the time is so tireing and that is why I am moving to Florida or Colorado when I graduate college and start my own family.. That's a long way away though so I'm sure by then my mind will be changed. I just can't wait to be off for spring break and visit good ole Pigeon Forge and spend alllllll of my grandparents money.

"I don't like Drama"

Honestly here lately I have been getting fed up with most people and the way that they think they are better than others. You are no better than anyone in this world, you sin just as much as anyone else. Some people really irk me with the way that they think they don't do anything wrong and that everything that is done that involves them is the others persons fault. When really they are in just as much fault as the other person in the situation. Some people like to say that they are mature and they "don't like drama" when they are the ones that start most of it. If you can't take what you dish out then you shouldn't be saying anything in the first place.This little blog may sound childish and what not but I'm really fed up with the way that some people blame others for the things that they are doing or have done. I have finished my ranting for the day and I am going to have a wonderful rest of the day and not worry about a single thing. I hope everyone else has a wonderful day as well :)

Sweet summer time

Today has been one of those boring days and the rain doesn't really make it any better. The rain always makes me so tired. I makes me want to sleep all day long and nevere wake up unti it's warm and sunny outside again. I am so tired of winter I am ready for summertime. Warm weather, bright sunny days, and swimming. I miss having my tan and going to the beach. Late summer nights are always the best! I miss those so much! Summer can't get here fast enough. This weekend was such a tease, it has me wanting summer more and more.

So many questions.

I always have so many questions to ask about random things. Like why is my life the way it is? Why did God chose for me to have this life? Why did he want me to have everything that I have? I mean simple questions like that pop up in my head all of the time. What is going to happen in the near future? Am I going to be succesful at the things that I do? Will my dream to be a dental hygienist become a reality? How many children will I have after I get married? Will I get married? Will it be so someone who is good to me or will it be one of those stink marriages that only last for a couple months because of arguing? I'm not going to be poor... am I? So many unanswered questions that I want to know but I know that time can only tell. So until then I will just have to live everyday like it is my last day and all I can do is hope for the best and do everything that I possibly can to become everything that I want to be in life.  I know that God will be with me 100% of the way, I am always so worried about letting people down and dissapointing my mom or my grandparents, I want to make them proud. I always try to do whatever I can to make them proud of me, I could do so much better but as of right now I can only do so much. Throughout my life I know that things will get better and at times things will get worse. I know that I have friends and God with me throughout the whole way though.

The countdown continues..

The countdown continues... 85 more days until my sweet boyfriend gets to come home from basic training!!!! I cannot wait. I miss him so much. I do get to go see him on May 3-5 for family weekend. I can't wait to finally be able to see him and hug him. I haven't heard from him since last Thursday :( I haven't gotten a phone call in a week and two days../: I miss his voice so much..I know that's corny. But I really do. I finally got a return address so I can write him back. I've written about 15 letters to him, I hope he has got them. I can't wait to hear back from him! I am so proud of everything that he is doing. He is making everyone proud and will continue to do so as he goes in to serve our country!

13 Days Down.. 94 More To Go.

                                                                   13 days down.. 94 more to go..

Another day is down and I have 94 more to go until I can finally see my boyfriend again!! I didn't get to talk to him this weekend... Which makes me really upset to be honest. Some guys ruined things for the other ones that didn't do anything. Why would you steal your phone back from your commander? That's just crazy. I miss hearing his voice and seeing him everyday. I'm really hoping that I will get a letter or two in the mail today. That is the only thing that I look forward to every single day. I wake up in the morning and pray that he stays safe and then all day I wonder wonder wonder if I will get a letter in the mail when I get home that evening from school. I wish we would hurry up and get a return address so that I could write him back. It's reall hard being in an army relationship. You don't get to see your loved one for months at a time... That really sucks. Most girls take advantage of their boyfriends.. Well the girls that get to see them everyday. I will honestly be more appreciative of my boyfriend when he returns home. Being without him for this long is killing me and most people would say "aw, it's not hurting you that badly." They obviously have never had anything that has meant the world to them leave them just all of a sudden, it feels like your world has been turned upside down in a matter of seconds. You go from talking to him everyday, seeing him everyday, and calling him whenever you wanted to.. to not getting to talk to him for days.. maybe weeks at a time. The only thing that is getting me by are my friends, family, and the letters that I recieve from him about 3 times a week. Every night I sleep in his clothes and cuddle with the bear that he got for me because right now that is the only thing that I have to remind me of him... other than our memories and I think of them daily. Everytime I think of one it's just like reliving them over again. I also have the puppy that we got together before he left, she sleeps with me at night time as well. I can't wait for him to come home I will attack him with kisses and hug him until he makes me let go. Just thinking of it gets me all excited.. 94 more days?.. Can I do it? I think I can, I just have to be strong for my boyfriend and for me as well. I know that time will go by fast if I keep myself busy and do things with my friends to get my mind off of it. I really never stop thinking about him or the fact that he is gone, but I always think about the way things will be when he gets back. Things will be so perfect and amazing, our relationship will be stronger than ever. I never ever thought that I would be in an army relationship, but I honestly love it. You learn to appreciate things a whole lot more than you did before. You learn to be patients and wait for what you love to come back to you. I'm counting down the days. It gets easier every single day, but it's still hard at times. He is home to me and I am so homesick right now. I have to be strong for him though and that's what I'm going to be. I love my soldier.