As Not Seen On Tv

I love this Article Of The Week because he is asking tons of questions that are questions anybody would love to know, but don't ask. No-one ever thinks to ask these questoins when really people would love to know the answers to them! I always think about things like this, I ask myself questions all of the time that I won't know the answer to until later on in life. Only time could answer the things I ask myself because I often think about my future and what it will be like. Will I still be with Forrest? What am I going to get a job doing? Is my life going to end up good or bad? Who will I marry? How many kids will I have? Will I even havev any? These questions will only be answered by time. I can shoot for all of these goals that I have, but God will give me what he wants me to have and I really hope that it's a good gift, which everything from God is so good. I just want my life long goals to come true & I want all of my questions to be answered.

Vacation

I am so ready to get out of Lincoln County for a couple of days. I get tired of being in the same old place every single day. I feel so sorry for the people that never get to go anywhere besides staying in North Carolina. I love seeing different things and going shopping in different places, learning new things about other states, and seeing the beauty of other places as well. I love North Carolina.. don't get me wrong, but being in the same state all of the time is so tireing and that is why I am moving to Florida or Colorado when I graduate college and start my own family.. That's a long way away though so I'm sure by then my mind will be changed. I just can't wait to be off for spring break and visit good ole Pigeon Forge and spend alllllll of my grandparents money.

"I don't like Drama"

Honestly here lately I have been getting fed up with most people and the way that they think they are better than others. You are no better than anyone in this world, you sin just as much as anyone else. Some people really irk me with the way that they think they don't do anything wrong and that everything that is done that involves them is the others persons fault. When really they are in just as much fault as the other person in the situation. Some people like to say that they are mature and they "don't like drama" when they are the ones that start most of it. If you can't take what you dish out then you shouldn't be saying anything in the first place.This little blog may sound childish and what not but I'm really fed up with the way that some people blame others for the things that they are doing or have done. I have finished my ranting for the day and I am going to have a wonderful rest of the day and not worry about a single thing. I hope everyone else has a wonderful day as well :)

Sweet summer time

Today has been one of those boring days and the rain doesn't really make it any better. The rain always makes me so tired. I makes me want to sleep all day long and nevere wake up unti it's warm and sunny outside again. I am so tired of winter I am ready for summertime. Warm weather, bright sunny days, and swimming. I miss having my tan and going to the beach. Late summer nights are always the best! I miss those so much! Summer can't get here fast enough. This weekend was such a tease, it has me wanting summer more and more.

So many questions.

I always have so many questions to ask about random things. Like why is my life the way it is? Why did God chose for me to have this life? Why did he want me to have everything that I have? I mean simple questions like that pop up in my head all of the time. What is going to happen in the near future? Am I going to be succesful at the things that I do? Will my dream to be a dental hygienist become a reality? How many children will I have after I get married? Will I get married? Will it be so someone who is good to me or will it be one of those stink marriages that only last for a couple months because of arguing? I'm not going to be poor... am I? So many unanswered questions that I want to know but I know that time can only tell. So until then I will just have to live everyday like it is my last day and all I can do is hope for the best and do everything that I possibly can to become everything that I want to be in life.  I know that God will be with me 100% of the way, I am always so worried about letting people down and dissapointing my mom or my grandparents, I want to make them proud. I always try to do whatever I can to make them proud of me, I could do so much better but as of right now I can only do so much. Throughout my life I know that things will get better and at times things will get worse. I know that I have friends and God with me throughout the whole way though.

The countdown continues..

The countdown continues... 85 more days until my sweet boyfriend gets to come home from basic training!!!! I cannot wait. I miss him so much. I do get to go see him on May 3-5 for family weekend. I can't wait to finally be able to see him and hug him. I haven't heard from him since last Thursday :( I haven't gotten a phone call in a week and two days../: I miss his voice so much..I know that's corny. But I really do. I finally got a return address so I can write him back. I've written about 15 letters to him, I hope he has got them. I can't wait to hear back from him! I am so proud of everything that he is doing. He is making everyone proud and will continue to do so as he goes in to serve our country!

13 Days Down.. 94 More To Go.

                                                                   13 days down.. 94 more to go..

Another day is down and I have 94 more to go until I can finally see my boyfriend again!! I didn't get to talk to him this weekend... Which makes me really upset to be honest. Some guys ruined things for the other ones that didn't do anything. Why would you steal your phone back from your commander? That's just crazy. I miss hearing his voice and seeing him everyday. I'm really hoping that I will get a letter or two in the mail today. That is the only thing that I look forward to every single day. I wake up in the morning and pray that he stays safe and then all day I wonder wonder wonder if I will get a letter in the mail when I get home that evening from school. I wish we would hurry up and get a return address so that I could write him back. It's reall hard being in an army relationship. You don't get to see your loved one for months at a time... That really sucks. Most girls take advantage of their boyfriends.. Well the girls that get to see them everyday. I will honestly be more appreciative of my boyfriend when he returns home. Being without him for this long is killing me and most people would say "aw, it's not hurting you that badly." They obviously have never had anything that has meant the world to them leave them just all of a sudden, it feels like your world has been turned upside down in a matter of seconds. You go from talking to him everyday, seeing him everyday, and calling him whenever you wanted to.. to not getting to talk to him for days.. maybe weeks at a time. The only thing that is getting me by are my friends, family, and the letters that I recieve from him about 3 times a week. Every night I sleep in his clothes and cuddle with the bear that he got for me because right now that is the only thing that I have to remind me of him... other than our memories and I think of them daily. Everytime I think of one it's just like reliving them over again. I also have the puppy that we got together before he left, she sleeps with me at night time as well. I can't wait for him to come home I will attack him with kisses and hug him until he makes me let go. Just thinking of it gets me all excited.. 94 more days?.. Can I do it? I think I can, I just have to be strong for my boyfriend and for me as well. I know that time will go by fast if I keep myself busy and do things with my friends to get my mind off of it. I really never stop thinking about him or the fact that he is gone, but I always think about the way things will be when he gets back. Things will be so perfect and amazing, our relationship will be stronger than ever. I never ever thought that I would be in an army relationship, but I honestly love it. You learn to appreciate things a whole lot more than you did before. You learn to be patients and wait for what you love to come back to you. I'm counting down the days. It gets easier every single day, but it's still hard at times. He is home to me and I am so homesick right now. I have to be strong for him though and that's what I'm going to be. I love my soldier.

 

 

 

                                                     

What is Love?

Do you know what love is? We all have many different theorems of what love could be or what love is all about. To love you must be kind and patient, just like love its self. Do you love? Are you patient and kind? Love is not to be: Boastful, Rude, or Arrogant. You should not rejoice at wrong doing, but rejoice with the truth. Are you any of those things under "Love is not to be"? You should ask yourself this on a daily basis. You should always love, hate gets you no where in life. Go out and start fresh with someone that you absolutely can not stand, fix things from the past.



In the blanks below fill in your name:
                                                     
                                                             ___________ is patient
                                                             ___________ is kind
                                                             ___________ does not envy or boast,

                                                             ___________ is not arrogant or rude,
                                                             ___________ does not insist on my own way,

                                                             ___________ is not irritable or resentful;
                                                             ___________ does not rejoice at wrong doing, but rejoices with the truth.



                                                         Look at this everyday after you fill your name in and see if you have followed everything. Are you living my loving? Or are you still Rude, Resentful, Arrogant, and Boastful? Change yourself for the better, but rememeber God is always with you through everything that you do. :)!!

Dear Roxanne

Dear Roxanne,
                        I can't believe that you fell in love with me, but with Cyrano's words. I want you to love me but you're way to beautiful and smart for me. I'm so dumb for tricking you into all of this. You don't need someone like me you need someone better, someone that is smart and will love you and treat you the way you need to be treated. I hate that we've done this to you. I want you to love me but in reality you are in love with Cyrano's words and my looks. You can't have everything that a guy would want and you deserve so much better than what I am. I'll always truly love you Roxanne, but it's time for me to go now. Live happy and Stay beautiful.
                                                                                                -Christian

My dislike for girls. Eeerg.

You know what I hate? Well hate is a strong word.. Do you know what I strongly dislike?? Girls, girls that think that all I do is cheat on my boyfriend since he is gone to basic training. No as a matter of fact I do not cheat on my boyfriend. I have more respect for myself, him, and our realtionship than to do something like that. My boyfriend is gone.. so what? That doesn't mean that I'm going to want someone else. I stayed with him through all of this because I love him and I wanted to. If I didn't think that I could hold myself back from cheating on him, then I wouldn't have went through with this. Errg. I could go on for forever and say things that should totally not be on the internet, but I am going to hold myself back. I LOVE blogging. I can release my anger and express all of my feelings. It feels so wonderful. Any hoo.. I'm missing my boyfriend A LOT. I can't wait for him to come home, I'm going months without a single kiss or hug.. :( I am SOOOO ready to have our "second first kiss" again!!!!:) I love you Forrest!! Stay strong! :) :*

97 More Days!!

Today marks 97 days until my boyfriend comes home from Basic Training for the Army. 97? Is this real life? How am I going to make it that long without seeing him? It's going to be super hard, but I know I can do it! I'm strong, I know he wouldn't want me to be crying my eyes out everynight. So I'm doing this for him. I know that when he gets home things will be absolutely wonderful and I can not wait for the day that he comes home!! Oh my gosh I get so excited just thinking about it. I always wonder what he does during the day, I can just see him running through things or jumping over things and I just laugh everytime because I know he's cussing up a storm and hating every minute of his life right now. haha, that's bad to say but I knew he wouldn't like it. Oh well, I'm sure I'm going to hear some stories when he gets home. I'm excited to hear them but I'm way more excited to finally be able to kiss him again! The first day that he left I felt like my whole world had just been turned upside down because I was so used to talking to him everyday, seeing him whenever I wanted to, and calling him whenever I wanted to talk. Now I only get to send letter and I can't even do that right now because I don't have a dang return address yet!!! I've only talked to him once since he's left and I can not wait to hear from him again. I'm  supposed to be getting a call today, but you never really know when you're going to get one. I know that I will be so much stronger after all of this because I mean not many people can say that they have been through this situation and I'm sure as heck proud to say that I have!!!!